Apparently when I say "six", it doesn't sound like six...

Um. So yeah. Here we go. Yet another day. So thanks to people who make me smile and don't even realize it. But yeah. Back to the poinnnt. I sometimes wonder if I should actually put in details of my life, but then somehow I know the more I force my self to write, the less I actually will. blasting off into yet another list!

• I said the f word while mimicking the guy my friend likes... he said it first..and it was a joke... but yeah
• I got mad at my sister when she stole the bathroom this morning.
• I hurried through my devotions
• I wasn't completely honest
• I texted someone when I should have called them. yippy for politeness..
• I got mad at my friend... cause I want to talk about me. and she wanted to talk about her. so .. yeah.
• I thought evil thoughts about destroying yet another female...
• I became very upset with the thought of abbey having more friends than me on fb. Lame, yes. But after the shattering truth that guys my age are more likely to like my 12 year-old sister than I, I've been a bit crazy.
• I zoned out on people
• I told abbey I will wash the dishes if she makes cookies... we'll see how that deal unfolds.

So. Just so you all know. I love Abbey. And we do get along. I just... well she can be mean to me and I can be mean to her... but that's just how it goes. Right. And I've realized I've started back up my habit of using ellipses (also known as "..."). I should probably fix that. It annoys some people.

Alright.

"Whatever you have said in the dark will be heard in the light, and what you have whispered will be shouted from the housetops for all to hear."

- Luke 12:3

Numero Uno. Not... five golden rings?

Rearranging thoughts seems to be a theme. On the bright side of things, I got everything done that I needed to get done today! Mostly. Alright. I feel like I should do a better job of keeping track of things when I do them. But lately, everything has been kind of blurring together. You start to wonder if you do anything right at all. My mind was much to corrupt to say that I did anything right... I can't think of when I wasn't selfish today. But I must keep writing lists. That way I feel like there is a point to this. But is there?

• I got mad at Abbey again. Over and over again.
• I hid food...
• I depended on my own strength rather than Gods...

that's it.

thank you for playing.

"To offer it to you would be cruel, because I'll I want is to use you" - Diplomates Son. Vampire Weekend. The song I am listening to at the moment.

And I go far and wide with the adventures in my mind...

"Whatever you have said in the dark will be heard in the light, and what you have whispered will be shouted from the housetops for all to hear."

- Luke 12:3

Four score and seven years ago. Or just four.

Well it would appear that as I continue blogging, I have been getting worse and worse at actually keeping track of my sins. Failure. Anywhos, I was in a strange mood today.. so yes.

The list-ish thing.

• I made fun of fat people.
• I yelled and got annoyed with my sister, several times. Haha. Poor Abbey.
• I plotted to keep all the yummy food in our kitchen away from anyone who isn't me...
• I was slightly anti-social and it came off kind of rude.
• I blamed school for my troubles and not the fact that I'm procrastinating it.
• I decided this guy driving behind me was crazy and creepy, and thus went on to announce this to the other people in the car.
• I just typed "damn" while chatting.
• I talked badly about my friend"ish" person again.
• I'm was quick to judge.
• I once again failed to do my devotions...

and probably many others.

well. night chaps. xD

"Whatever you have said in the dark will be heard in the light, and what you have whispered will be shouted from the housetops for all to hear."

- Luke 12:3

Jealous and small, with painkiller posing as my best friend, this is where the third begins.

Day three.

Or the end of it anyhows.

I must admit it wasn't the best day ever. Nothing was wrong, but something wasn't right. Oddly enough, or maybe not odd at all, I spent the entire day jealous of other people. Didn't matter who. Didn't matter what. I just wasn't happy living in these shoes of mine. Anyways, back to the point. I'm feeling awfully broad today, so it won't be much of a list.

Basically,

• I yelled and got snappy with several different people, several different times.
• I probably thought millions of cuss words, although I don't recall any slipping.
• I played through a few scenes. The kind were females who have what I want accidentally fall on my knife... 10 times.
• And that should rap it up for the most part. I've been a bit self pitying and what not. But yeah.

Joy.

Hm... Yes. Maybe I am a wee bit too sarcastic..

"Whatever you have said in the dark will be heard in the light, and what you have whispered will be shouted from the housetops for all to hear."

- Luke 12:3

Black. White. "Oh Crap" is right. Entry two.

Here we go again.

Excited? Great. And yes. I am writing this one just a few minutes after I finished my last. I started this blog when I was already on day two, but I figured I should make separate posts for the days. That way you, my readers that I don't actually have, won't get confused! Aren't I brilliant? Haha. List number two. I was worse today. If it's of any consequence, I began that joyous happy week that seems to continue coming back once each month...

• The first thing I thought/said when I woke this morning was "damn". Repeatedly too.
• I was snappy and mean to my sister multiple times throughout the day. I lost track.
• I was flirty with guys I'm not even sure I like, because I want a prom date.
• I was obsessed with looks all day.
• I was rude to people when I got overly competitive. At bowling. Which is one of the many sports I suck at.
• I spent most of the day thinking about sex.
• I shrugged off people in my life because I'm stressed from school.
• I lied.
• I avoided fixing a situation I really need to address.
• I mentally filled in "rip" with the actual word while listening to the radio. It sounds better when you do...
• I failed to accomplish anything without thinking about a boy. It was annoying. I sometimes wonder if I even own my brain.

In some ways, seeing as this list is shorter, it may seem like I actually did better. However, don't be deceived, this is not the case. I did not write down anything as the day went on, but instead wrote the things I remembered a few moments ago. So it's only a partial list. I'm hoping, that if I do post this, no one will hate me... haha. Sorry.

"Whatever you have said in the dark will be heard in the light, and what you have whispered will be shouted from the housetops for all to hear."

- Luke 12:3

Avoiding the "gray"

So here I go, once again throwing myself into a blog. My brother has decided to attempt being "perfect" for 7 days. I, however, have realized I could not even come close to this venture, and therefore, instead of attempting the impossible, I will simply just track my many failures and short comings. Yippy.

In an attempt to avoid the "gray", I will be quite frank with you. Avoiding some names and specifics, but leaving in the crap I'd rather have no one read.

Day Uno:

• I didn't get out of bed on time because I was to busy thinking about a boy. Surprised? You shouldn't be.
• I loathed the idea of this guy I know sitting next to me. Not because he's creepy. But because everyone makes fun of him and I was embarrassed.
• Later, when my class mates were making fun of that same guy behind his back, I didn't stand up for him.
• I compared my self to another girl and was satisfied that I at least looked better than her.
• I seriously considered killing these three annoying flirty people sitting behind me in another class.
• I gossiped and talked badly about a... friend"ish" person.
• I got mad and snappy at my little sister when she kept playing with "pom poms" attached to the jacket I was wearing.
• I was lazy and procrastinated school I really needed to do, and then blamed the overload on almost everything, and one, but myself.
• I convinced a friend to let me borrow a CD so I could steal the songs off of it behind her parents' backs.
• I thought only about myself the entire day (I don't count boys as other people... considering all thoughts of them are selfish.)
• I like terrible songs like "3" and "Sexy Bitch".
• I thought quite a few cuss words throughout the day. ("quite a few" being an understatement)

"Whatever you have said in the dark will be heard in the light, and what you have whispered will be shouted from the housetops for all to hear."

- Luke 12:3